You're Gonna Be Fine
Last we spoke the world was falling, but this time, unlike the past, I wasn’t worried about it.
Let’s use Ghost of Christmas Past magic & look at a moment during the All Us Bad Folk recording sessions where I was alone, curled in squat on the floor, stripped to my skivvies, listening to the record, & having a panic attack. I’m not exactly sure what sent me off, but I recall my temperature rising while panic sweats kicked in. It seemed only natural to rip off my clothes & curl up into a ball while the songs played.
That moment passed, I put my clothes back on, & we released a cool little record.
When we didn’t hit our crowd funding goal for the 2nd record, lost the studio space, & ditched the producer, it wasn’t the end of the world. The sky never fell. Sure, things didn’t line up like I’d hoped, but we’d made a record by ourselves before, we could do it again.
There’s a moment in Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban that I always find myself coming back to. SPOILER WARNING. Throughout the book Harry is having trouble producing a powerful spell called a Patronus. While a character called Sirius is being attacked, Harry unable to help sees a figure in the distance cast a Patronus which saves Sirius from his attackers. More story than I can explain here happens & the element of time travel is introduced. Harry travels back in time to the attack. Now in the distance, he watches as his helpless self & Sirius are attacked. As he’s waiting for the figure to appear, he realizes it was he who’d cast the Patronus earlier. Without second guessing himself he conjures the charm, saving Sirius again & for the first time from being attacked.
“I knew I could do it this time because I’d already done it… does that make sense?”
I’m not here to judge the merit of time travel science, accuracy, or coherency, but boy oh boy, has this bit of story had a huge impact on my life. It gets me going & pushes me through anxious moments. If I’m feeling nervous before a show & the set time is 8:00-8:45, I’ll tell myself, “There’s a you at 8:50 who’s already played the show & beat the nerves.” It helps. Try it out.
Now let’s use Ghost of Christmas Future magic & talk about the opening track of Fever Dream called Horses. I’m going to be vague because I’d prefer you experience this song aurally – I mean, hey, I already spoiled Harry Potter, I don’t want to spoil the tune! Anywho, I just wanted to share that I have a hard time not joyously laughing when I hear this song. It feels like we pulled off our own magic trick. It’s a mini epic that hurts & heals my heart. I cannot wait for you to hear it.
The idea of self releasing this record has seemed scary. Not strip off all my clothes scary, but scary none the less. The good news is that there’s a me out there the day after Fever Dream hits the world & he’s quoting Harry Potter, “I knew I could do it this time because I’d already done it… does that make sense?”
It would be incredible if you’d take a moment & follow Oklahoma on Spotify. We’ll be releasing a handful of songs before the record is officially out. As a matter of fact, the first single Wrecking Ball is available now! Xoxo